How do you prepare for a life changing event? When do you finally feel ready to welcome a new baby into your home? Well, I have spent the past 2 weeks trying to solve these questions and more....
Cleaning my house, organizing baby clothes, buying out Babies R Us with last minute necessities, lots of laundry, playing with Brightlie, praying, crying, laughing, and stressing....it's funny how long 9 months feels... but now i almost wish i had more time.
The thoughts of my heart tonight are:
-How will tomorrow go, as far as labor/delivery? (being induced,- i was with B, but you never know what may arrise)
-How will Brightlie react? (to staying away from us overnight which she has never done, to the new baby, to sharing attention, her role as a big sister, etc.)
-How will Paul survive a new baby & finals/graduation at the same time? yikes!
-How will i be able to handle a newborn & toddler without my Mom here to be with me- i miss her greatly at times like these, when i feel lonely for her company, wisdom, help, and support.
-Will i be able to handle two children..... emotionally? Postpartum depression makes me nervous.
- Will i favor Brightlie? How do you love 2 little girls equally/differently (but still, how?)
- How will Paul & I's relationship change as we add more children? How will our love grow and develop?
And finally....
-What are we going to name her?!
I hope that tomorrow can bring peace to my soul... I have never been good at change, which is funny since i all for moving forward, new achievements, and a life full accomplishments of personal goals. I am excited, nervous, anxious, and scared for tomorrow. But i know it will all work out the way the Lord has planned. Tomorrow is a big day... But i am happy to have my husband by my side, family to help with B, and loving friends who have offered many texts, calls, and kind words of support and love.
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you will do great. i seriously had many similar questions before Sophie. you will be so surprised how this new little sweetie will hold a special place in your heart the whole time without knowing it. labor will go great. i went in to be induced the second time-and the cervidil put me straight into labor on my own! brightlie will do great and love her new sis. let me know if you need help with anything! get lots of rest tomorrow is a big one!!
ReplyDeleteI heard a good bit of advise from a mom that just welcomed her second child: the toddler knows when you are choosing the baby of him/her. If baby girl is okay for a few more minutes, it's okay to give your attention to the toddler. Hope that helps a little.
ReplyDeleteI'm sure her name will be just as perfect of a fit as Brightlie's is for her. Praying for you!